sometimes it feels like i'm left all alone in this place. i dont know what should i do, how should i start or what to do next. then i think of some stuff. makes me realised that, life is so precious. i keep having wild imaginations about what's gonna happen next and if it does, what will i do. i hate those thought cos im scared. i dont want anything to happen to anyone at all. not even those i dislike. something's terribly wrong, with me.

what's wrong with me. damn.
ihateitihateitihateitihateitihateit

5:47 PM

as i was walking back home today. it started to drizzle. then slowly the rain became bigger and bigger. lightning & thunder were soon seen and often heard & seen. i was walking all alone on that usual pathway which seems exceptionally long today. walking as quickly as i could feeling so afraid that the lightning might strike me. even with an umbrella i couldn't help but feel afraid. i was so terrified. hands covering my ears. holding the umbrella as low as i could when the super strong wing blew and during the whole lonely walk home. i kept thinking if you were somewhere near and saw me. would you come over?

it might be crazy. most people would be thinking about other more important things, but i thought of you during the whole walk back home. the same one which seemed exceptionally long today.

if you saw me alone in the pouring rain shivering; with fear, would you come over?


alright. it's getting too emo! haha. that was just to describe my journey home. so scary la! i was carrying the umbrella at the lowest. and 90 degrees to my left. cos there was a SUPERRRR EXTREMELY stong wind! so strong that the umbrella was feeling SO heavy. and if khim was with me. she might have probably been blown away by the wind. HAHAHA!

i so love this picture. cos it can totally express how i feel now :D


you make my heart flutter everytime i see you.

7:03 PM

BOREDOM KILLS.

> 1. Name someone who made you smile today.
> someone. :D
> 2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
> PE
> 3. What were you doing 30 minutesago?
> bathing
> 4. What is something that happened to you in 1990?
> thats the year i was born in!
> 5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
> OH!
> 6. How many different things did you drink today?
> probably 2
> 7. What color is your hairbrush?
> black and red
> 8. What was the last thing you bought?
> grass jelly drink
> 9. Who was the last person you kissed?
> haha.
> 10. What color is your front door?
> dark brown
> 11. Where do you keep your change?
> wallet
> 12. What's the weather like today?
> humid
> 13. What is the best ice creamflavor?
>no preference
>14. What is something you are excited about?
> friday nights & sunday noons. :D:D:D
>15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
> oh! just recently. in school. :)
> 16. What size shoe do you wear?
> depends. most of the time 6
> 18. Are you random?
> might be.
> 19. Do you want to cut your hair?
>YES! but im not sure whether to.
> 21.do you talk alot?
> yaya XD>
> 22. Does your screen name have an "x"> in it?
> nope.
> 24. Do you know anyone named Steven?
> yea
> 26. Are you ticklish?
> NO I AM NOT! XD
> 27. Are you typically a jealousperson?
> see who lor>
> 28. Name someone whose name startswith> the letter "R":
> ryan
> 29. Name a friend whose name starts
> with the letter "G":
> grace
> 30. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
> no number
> 31. What did the last text messageyou
> received say?
> :)
> 32. Do you chew on your straws?
>nope.
> 33. Do you have curly hair
> nope
> 34. What is the next concert you're going to?
> none.
> 35. Whats your favourite color?
> maroon
> 37. What is something you say a lot today?
> tired!
> 38. What is the last thing you ate?
> grass jelly
> 39. Have you seen the movie "Donnie> Darko"?
> no. i dont like movies.
> 40. Do you have work tomorrow?
> NOPE! it's a SATURDAYYYYYYYY!!!! :D:D:D
> 41. Is marriage in your future?
> yes. definitely. :)
> 42. When was the last time you said "I love you."?
> hahahahaha.
> 43. What should you be doing rightnow?
> going to bed soon. im exhausted.
> 44. Do you have a nickname?
> plenty. :) but i dont care. haha
> 45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
>depends whether im tired anot.
> 46. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
> YEARRRRSSSS ago.
> 47. What is the best movie you'veseen in the past two weeks?
> none.
> 51. Did you cry today?
> teared. lol
> 52. Do you like someone right now?
> :D:D:D
> 53. Are you currently playing any sports?
> for PE. i played a mixture of frisbee, basketball& volleyball! haha
> 55. Last time you listened to music?
> in the train just now.
> 56. Last time you watched tv?
> ehhhh. yesterday? i didnt watch tv today. sucha a nerd. HA!
> 57. Do you miss someone right now?
> probably. haha!
> 58. What are you doing at this very moment?
> what else but this?
> 59. Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
> KYLIE!
> 60. Are any of your friends going to fill this out?
> i dont think so.


alright. im gonna dry my hair and go to bed! hahaha goooood night!


and it's still you :)

10:40 PM

it's a LONG picture post! :D enjoy yea!


in the mids of preparing for Arts Fiesta.
done with make up.
see our glittery eyes. haha
close up view. THANKS KHIMO! for helping us to put on make up!
in the train!

7:41 PM

yesterday yesterday YESTERDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :D:D
i'm probably floating on cloud nine alr. just thinking bout yesterday andddd the coming sundays.

i shan't say anymore. hahaha.

easter vigil pictures!
legion of MARY! :D
REKO!
ALOY!
my sister & cheam! something suspicious? HMMMMMM! XD
haha.

3:02 PM

Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence

Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone. You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings. Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires. A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others. You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist.

What Camilla Means

C is for Crazy A is for Athletic M is for Marvelous I is for Irresistible L is for Lovable L is for Luscious A is for Active

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you both as reserved and sweet. You tend to be very sensitive and detail oriented. The smallest things can please or annoy you. You tend to be internally moody. Perceptive and intuitive, you understand people quickly - though you usually won't tell them.

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

What Guys Think of Your Medium Straight Hair...

Smart, optimistic, easy going. You're the thinking man's ideal woman - bright, funny, and no drama.

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

bored! lol. had SA1 english today. and i think i did quite badly. sigh. i just wanna pass! haha. and i think mrs gibson's gonna talk about me because i did an arguementative essay today. lol. pray for me okay! thanks you all!

DO THE QUIZ BELOW! :D

5:06 PM

Create your own Friend Test here

NEW TEST! try it! as for the previous one. it's up to you if you wanna do it. :D

HAPPYYYYY 18 BIRTHDAY MAC!
<33333333 big time! :D

7:56 PM

Create your own Friend Test here


got this from SK's blog.
HAVE FUN! :D


These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1. i cannot maintain eye contact with anybody i talk to for really long.
2. i like to stone, even when i talk to people.
3. i dont like to talk to people, especially when i just meet them.i'll be as quiet as a mouse. XD
4. i can only fall asleep on beds and sofas.
5. i like being full so i dont need to eat.
6. i dont like people to lean on me or sling their hands on mine. (excluding BFs & really close friends), like putting their head on my shoulder is a BIG nono. BUTTTT i have SOMEEEEE exceptions. sometimes. depending on my mood.

6 random people:
- KYLIE
- SEOK KEE
- CHARMAINE
- JANICE
- BEN TAN
- JASMINE

got this from ALENE's blog.
CONTINUE THE GAME. XD

HAPPYY EASTER EVERYONE!

you give me the sugar rush. <3

9:55 PM

"ahhh choooooo!"
as i keep sneezing right after school till now. i think im falling sick. haha. i wanna recover asap! :D

math's been getting tougher and tougher. unlike last time i was among the first few to finish the work given during lessons and still got time to teach others. but now. nooo. im the one that's lagging. damn. everything is getting harder and harder. not that im trying the show off that my math is good. but it's seriously getting tougher. but....
IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP! i wanna do my O levels no matter what.

Two Names You Go By:
1. kylie 2. B............:D
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. shirt. 2. shorts
Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. love 2. freedom
Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1. THIS 2. typing
Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. to lose weight. drastically 2. to learn belly dancing :D
Two things you did last night:
1. sms. 2. listen to music
Two things you ate today:
1. ice-cream 2. curry puff
Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. go to school 2. have lessons
Two of your least favorite things to do:
1. studying 2. still studying

random pictures!



all of the above pictures are those i did with kylie's hair. i know. they're not very nice. but i appreciate my art. XD
SHORT HAIR!

and off i am again to do my coursework. then math then study then penitential service and then study again. sucha boring life. but i know there'll be a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. and it's all worth it.

BYEEE! <3

5:40 PM

back to those days?

dont know why but these few days i feel all emo and a lil unloved? it's kinda a really sucky feeling. as if i've been isolated and there's no life. i cant really describe how i feel. so im just gonna copy a post from kylie. cos it kinda expresses my feelings.

It feels like sometimes im alone in this shit
Everyone seems so busy.
Am i just about to rascent?
Well, i should get used to this.
Times, i feel like no one ever or even bother.
why would anyone?
I just feel like crying over every minor incident.
Somehow i feel the joy being a child.
Inmaturely you can express your feelings
You cry when you're in pain
you cry when you need attention
you cry whenever you're afraid.
Shouldn't human all behave like this?
Most, except some - (including me.)
I guess i've grown up after so much.
I realised that putting on a brave front or smile would better the world.
Even when i could feel the bile in my thoart react.
Yet suppressed.
Why isn't anyone out there to ease me when im in sucha situation.
No one actually feel how i feel.
Can i cry after my fall?
Nahs.. you're a grown up i kept reciting.

9:52 PM